Friday, December 19
{ 12:22 AM }
Twilight: Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-- Points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly, everything was on fire. There was brilliancy; there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.It is 12:22 am and I am in a semidetached state of mind. I am realizing that my life is normal; good normal, happy normal. It lacks the countless "high-lows" and "emotional swings" that all melodramas need to possess. Even though it is not really interesting 'cause there aint any bitchfights or police cases, and I mostly stick with my two groups of friends: church and school, and even though I do not go to underage parties and I have never drank more than five glasses of Vodka, never worn a bikini, I am fully contented with my life; going out with people I really care about because I really cannot stand the forced efforts of conviviality and the whole facade thing needed to pull off with acquaintances, even if we have nothing better to do except sit down in random places of shopping malls and talk about various aspects of life, I am really glad to be blessed with so many friends and a family who loves me. And after blog-hopping, I think that my life is stable. It is on a straight road right now, but soon it will hit a sharp curve which will catch me off-guard. I do not know when that is, but right now I am anticipating my future. :) my life is on contented slow mode :D Sometimes I wish my life were more interesting, that there would be some drama, but I guess one scene from the past which have impacted alot is enough for now.
I'm thankful for many many countless people and you know who you are. Right now I have no idea why I am on a rambling rampage.
watched Twilght with Allison, nette, audrey, delia today. watch the moviesbut do not have your expectations up.
ran around in pyjamas yesterday at the skybridge.
probably going to play guitarhero tmrw at jon's house.
to ling: continue being strong, you can complain to me whenever and ever im always here to listen. :)
to belle: i miss youuuu come back soooonnnnnn :( :( :( hurrrry up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to joseph: you too! dont break a leg.
to audrey: i know you read my blog you toot. i am so glad that everything is steady smooth now and yes i think we should hang out more. and goodluck with the boy in the ~picture~
to delia: hongkongggggggg after 18 :D thank you for being the alwayws lovable best friend
i just thought of these five people. my mind operates weirdly.
i need to start doing the things i love which i stopped doing. i need to start getting prepared for next year. i havent played the piano for at least fifteen minutes since exams. and i havent wrote a good poem for months. and ling and belle's shared notebook is still with me omg i am such a procrastinator. and yes i need to complete my christmas cards and finish buying off presents instead of bumming around the house!
4 more days/
