Saturday, December 13
{ 9:23 PM }
My 2009 resolution, even if its a little early
A few months back, I was someone entirely different. Never letting go, always clinging on, I never wanted to look ahead towards the future. What I wanted, then, was to play out a different scenerio in my past. Today, I cannot wait for the future and all the life-changing experiences that will challenge me. To step out of the house and appreciate the breeze against my cheek, the sounds of passing cars, the joy of being able to move freely, the warmth of home-cooked meals, ... I watched finish "One Litre of Tears" and it made me reflect on so many things. The times when I wanted to die so badly, slit myself, all seemed so unneccesary and childish. When I have a bad day, I tend to be totally absorbed in myself.. I never notice others who suffer so much. And I admire the handicapped people, those who have cancer, for their strength. I salute them. To be stared at, to be outcasted, to belong in a different world, to give up on so many things, but yet taking it all so positively. What they want, is To Live, to wake up each morning knowing they exist still. I think about it, and I see myself, so very immature and weak. I want to change, to be strong, to love and cherish myself even though I may not be the best, to take every insult with a stride, to live life to the fullest, to love like I've never been hurt. Most of all, to let God be the driving force in my life and never never go astray.
Adding on: 1.to pray every night and do QT, 2. read at least one book in two weeks. 3. call my friends up, esp those who have drifted!!! 4. work on being more domestic!!!! :)
I love my family and friends :D
Abi, Nette. (we havent been talking much, but you guys are still in my hearts)
Allison! (faith, i dont have a picture of you in my comp sorry but i love you still!)
delia, my bestestestest lesbian retarded friend whom i completely love love love
four of us :)
and michelle too i love!
and cherilyn :)
drama :) [wheres tim jean marie!!)
hahah goondu
class girls :)
class boys
and chia!! sorry i love you too but eh, different category k :(
and the obs group which i still havent forgotten
ling the mama and cara the xiaoxiao
and belle my sunshine tree :)
sbbf! when your fringe was much shorter!
joseph and lawrence :) whom i really appreciate alot for helping me out although you guys imitate me alot i still love you guys
julian!!
jlow my snowman!, daniel, gavin the metrosexual
ryan, sim, ahhhronzxzxzzxx aarono noraa . I SHALL ADD IN JOHN'S NAME HERE CAUSE I DONOT HAVE YOU PICTURE TOO IM SO SORRY BUT YOU STILL ROCK SRY
family :)
Young children are like blank canvases, but when they reach their adolescent years, the blank canvases get colored. Each kind remark or new friend made was like a colorful mark, but every insult and hurt faced was a black stain. Some did not have the ability to notice those colorful marks, and instead, let the dark stains rule their life. I was like that once, but with the help of everyone, I realize the colors outshine the dark. All the bad experiences that hurt us all so much was only something we all go through inevitably to become stronger in the process.
