Saturday, December 27
{ 2:16 AM }
Last year's and early this year's addiction & drug= Misery and the likes
Worst way to feel, some pit so hard to get out off, yet very strangely nice at the same time. I am not going to be stuck in this mud hole next year:) Phase=OVER=I outran the stupid black clouds chasing me with God in my heart.
Funny how it used to be, funny how you=major [X] now. Funny how Satan is so capable of clouding eyes by smudging it with the black polluting thoughts. The lies, the lies that youre not good enough, that youre stupid, that youre not pretty enough, not smart enough, not thin enough, thus your own pathetic life was a lie and you should end it all. The Lies.. The drastic change from this ridiculously naive, bitchy, retarded, bimbotic, p6 girl to a talkative sec1. Secondary twos were endless tears, early this year was bipolar tendencies and glassy stares. Now, I think I've found myself, I've found You all over again, rediscovered You be realizing your poignant existance through my very very special group of friends and family.
Jesus be our salvation and save us, save us from this fallen world.
You do know that you're special right, that I love you so and it makes me sad to see you like this. Cheer up love! You are great in every way.