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Monday, September 22 { 10:49 PM }

that was the point whereby i'm shocked; the things inflicted are so sudden, so unexpected that there's no time to process the pain, to feel it. and I look on ahead blankly (no, nothing hits me yet) giving people monosyballic replies, still wondering what went wrong, still wondering how the deceive was so tricky.
and then when the realisation comes, it doesn't hurt that badly yet.

now is the point whereby i'm upset and there's nothing they can do about it.. they dont want to talk because they do not know what to say. they dont want to talk because all they want is the happy girl. i want to talk to them but i dont know how to act.

and last time was when i cried in class, and it became quite a frequent occurence my classmates goes, " oh dont mind her, she always cries. for no reason"...

and now this is when i refuse to become transparent, so become so susceptible to pain and careless remarks.
and now, this is when i decide to harden myself. this is when i become apathetic. (hurt me, hurt me. i want to know how it feels like to be pried open and have my insides teared)

when those whom you trust and love do not even accept you, how can you love yourself?.. [this brings me to another level altogether]
you're making me give up on people, to give up on opening myself and loving others.