Sunday, March 25
{ 10:39 PM }
Lovely Abstracts from '' Message in a Bottle" by Nicholas Sparks." But then, as always, the mist starts to form as we stand close to one another. It is a distant fog that rises from the horizon, and I find that I grow fearful as it approaches. It slowly creeps in, eveloping the world around us, fencing us in as if to prevent escape. Like a rolling cloud, it blankets everything, closing, until there is nothing left but the two of us.
I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you release me. And then you spread your arms and go back into the fog because it is your place and not mine. I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know that is impossible.
And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you. But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back its faraway place and I am along on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry."
" Can you forgive me? In a world that I seldom understand, there are winds of destiny that blow when we least expect them. Sometimes they gust with the fury of a hurricane, sometimes they barely fan one's cheek. But the winds cannot be denied, bringing as they do a future that is impossible to ignore. You, my darling, are the wind that I did not anticipate, the wind that has gusted more strongly than I ever imagined possible. You are my destiny.
I was wrong, so wrong, to ignore what was obvious, and I beg your forgiveness. Like a cautious traveller, I tried to protect myself from the wind and lost my soul instead. I was a fool to ignore my destiny, but even fools have feelings, and I've come to realize you're the most important thing I have in this world."
" In my dream, I saw myself on the beach with Catherine, in the same spot I took you after our lunch at Hank's. It was bright in the sun, the rays reflecting brilliantly off the sand, As we walked alongside each other, she listened intently as I told her about you, about us, about the wonderful times we shared. Finally, after some time, I admitted that I loved you, but that I felt guilty about it. She said nothing right away, but simply kept walking until she finally turned to me and asked, ''Why?''
" Because of you.''
Upon hearing my answer, she smiled at me with patient amusement, the way she used to before she died. ' Oh, Garett,' she finally said as she gently touched my face, 'who do you think it was that brought the bottle to her?' "
" I don't know if the dead can come back to this earth and move about unseen by those who loved them, but if they can, then I know that you will always be with me. When I listen to the ocean, it will be your whispers; when a cool breeze caresses my cheek, it will be your spirit passing by. You are not gone forever, no matter who comes into my life. You are standing with God, alongside my soul, helping me guide toward a future I cannot predict.
This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank-you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me receiving my love in return. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go." This book is bitter-sweet, in a good way. It's been ages since I cried while reading a book (: No more romance stories for me, back to the usual macabre detective stories. Maybe I'm just too bored, that's why I typed all these out! But whatever it is, I think it's really sweet (:
Alright, the night says goodbye to me.
I must sleep.
