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Wednesday, December 20 { 12:23 AM }

He: you girls really make us live through hell.
Me: it's unintentional.
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I am very disturbed.

He: wait
He: give me a sec
He: ok done
He: im not unhappy
# CHAR! would never hurt you purposely & is sorry if she did, says: what?
He: what wad?
# CHAR! would never hurt you purposely & is sorry if she did, says: you're not unhappy?
He: im no longer
# CHAR! would never hurt you purposely & is sorry if she did. says: why not
He: becos like i told u ,i can control my feelings and i've decided to change it now

A few minutes ago, he was sad about a girl. Now, he's fine.

My point is: It's not good forgetting your unhappiness and it's not good to harden your heart so that you won't feel hurt again.


WHY?
-We don't have to live in the past or be prisoners of it. The past doesnt determine our future, but the past is part of who we are, and we will forget who we are if we choose not to remember the past.
-We don't have to pretend to be happy when we're sad. We don't have to hide our feelings. Our unhappiness is part of us too and we will be superhumans if we're happy 24/7.

Although sometimes I wish I can chase away the shadows of your name,
Although sometimes I wish I can chase away the sadness and smile the next second,
Although sometimes I wish I was less sentimental, less emotional, less dramatic,
But I won't even though I can.
Last time I trick myself into thinking that [if I do all of the above] it'll be better for me, that I'll be happier.
But now I realize I don't wanna numb myself to the pain, such that I harden my heart to be an unfeeling person who doesn't remember herself.
I have God (: and He makes me strong when I'm weak.
I have a purpose in life(:

ANYWAYS,
today was pretty eventful/uneventful. Someone called me at 9:47 and that damned phonecall woke me up. I suddenly realised that I was supposed to meet Delia at 9:45 am. Rushed out of the house at 10:05 am >:( [record breaking time for charmaine, I tell you], I bet everybody was like wondering why I look so messy.
Went to West Coast with Delia, Nette, Val, Faith to meet with the rest of the class! Ate macs breakfast, then went to play with some pulley stuff.[you'll like supposed to sit on it and ride from one end to the other]
AND OMG I hate you Desmond and Ian! You guys are so freaking mean, push me until so hard la! Heh but it was still fun(:
The guys left to play pool at SAFRA afterwards and the girls went to ginza for lunch!
Afterwards, some of them went to rent ''date movie'' to watch at my house. Omg I say, the movie is horny twisted sh*t. Horny guys, esp James, shouldnt watch it AT ALL.
I think I'm going to miss 1D06' >:( I really love the people there![yutong, tonghann!, nette, delia, mich, faith, eunice, qiai, aud, yihern, cheesiang, ian, etc..] I hope 2D07' will be as nice and retarded.


Random picture of the day:

I like this(:

Like always,
xoxo

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