Sunday, May 14
{ 5:56 PM }
Today was JUBILEE CELEBRATION AT EXPO! haha the lunch was nice but cold ( as in food cold la). And it took damn long to come, like about 15 minutes for 1 dish? Left at about 3:40 pm. And abraham (hah!) came at around 3.43 to the table I was at only to the table to find out I'm on the way home! hahahaha XD. Cara was sick so didn't see her and L3 had to pack her stuff (shiftin house). CARA GET WELL SOON!
I don't know you, not any longer
Don't ask me why, ask yourself
First, I never knew your intentions
Now, I do
And goddamit it hurts like hell
You planned it all
Right from the start till the very end.
You had your fun with me and you just go to another person?
Have you ever regarded my feelings?
No, you don't and you never did.
What do you think I am to you?!
Some piece of shit you can just toss around?
I had enough of your actions.
Whatever your intentions may be,
I don't give a damn any longer
Don't explain yourself to me
Not that you will cause you will never know
I just can't belive i trusted you
I also can't believe I was so dumb
And when you got it all
You frickin hell just tossed me aside
You are just someone from the past
I won't let you into my life any longer
But why is it so hard?!
I pretended to you that I didn't really care by making a big deal out of it,
To make your conscience feel better
So you will never know...
But do you know it hurts so much?
You still think you are my good friend
And when you read this you know it isn't directed to you
But someone else
Because I still treated you the same
Despite all your lies, your human dirt.
You never knew how it was like
To have a friend who betrayed you
leaving you feeling so empty, so lost, so cheated
Like everything had been thrown out
Then concealed to not let anything inside.
To have a friend whom you trusted so much
Crushing your trust so you won't trust anyone else!
You taught me a few lessons life had to offer
You taught me never to trust someone so readily
You taught me how to let go
I was just a piece of scum to you, was I?
Will I stop deluding myself?
I tried so many times.
I tell myself,
After the rain the sun will shine for me again.
But it wasn't the case, was it?
All my doubts have all been cleared.
You got what you want with me,
GO AWAY WILL YOU?!?!!!!!!?!
Still when I see you
I'll smile like nothing ever happened
Everything will just be concealed
Deep down.
Soon everything will change
And the sun will shine again
