Friday, April 7
{ 6:45 PM }
All you did...
I find it hard to trust everyone around me.
I opened up to you and look where it left me.
I dare not let my tears drip as I know there is weakness in your eyes.
Although i do not cry on the outside anymore.
Tired of putting up a mask,
Pretending everthing's alright.
Tired of putting up a fake smile,a fake laugh,
Though that's all it matters to make your conscience feel better.
You won't know whats going on inside of me,
As all you see is my emotions on the outside.
You made me aware,
That I shouldn't trust anyone so readily,
That I shouln't let my heart open up so easily,
That there really isn't anyone who cares,
That I do not want to face that hurt again,
That I am stupid,
That I am dumb,
for placing my trust and hopes on you.
Tomorrow got Sport's Day at ACJC, then after that going shopping with qiaiand audrey (:
UNBELIEVABLE! I got 2nd in class(girls) for 2.4 km! My timing was 13:!3! Got another try next week! Yay!
Don't judge me when you don't know me.
Don't label me as proud.
Don't call me ego.
Don't say whatever you want about me.
It's for me to decide who I choose to become,
Not for you to comment.
It's my future,
So save your comments.
And stop your labelling.
I'm sick of it! SICK! DISGUSTED!
Cant wait for tmrw.. So sad..I missed Sports Heats..... Exams coming up soon...Just had georg and Home econs today. I was like worrying the whole week about these 2 tests and now that's its over! Haha but the stress will come again when the results get released! I know I'm aiming too high( Just A2 - is that too much to ask for? It is,actually. I didn't study! )... But still.
Beacause I'm here,
charmaine